it is no easy thing to find a friend along the way, i mean the friend whose smile extends, beyond a single day... who has a word of praise, for everything you do & when misfortune turns the tide, is still a friend to you. the kind of friend whose attitude is never dark or cold. but who is always loyal & who has a heart of gold.
-James J. Metcalfe


life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you'll burst. but the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life going.
-Nathalie Bernot

Friday, August 31, 2007

i don't want those thoughts to haunt me again. SHOO. maybe i'm trying too hard. or maybe i'm not even trying hard at all.

teachers' day ended just like that. and i didn't go back to kcp. i shall go back during maybe next year, before i leave. (HAH) teachers' day makes me emotional. actually everyday makes me emotional. (sheesh) anyway seeing so many seniors coming back to school today, makes me realise that i'll never be able to do that. i nearly cried at that moment when that thought flashes through my mind. oh well.

i shall not think of anything. i shall just go and replenish my sleep.

au revoir.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

7:18 AM

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

i'm dying without my chopin's nocturnes book. cause there's no other way i can express my emo-ness.

maybe i should go try other books then. but they don't satisfy my emo-ness. sigh. chopin's etudes is nice. but it's not within my playing capabilities. maybe i should go try debussy. or brahms. or beethoven. or haydn. or mendelssohn. or mozart. (note: i'm bored of the last two.) i have such limited scores. i should go expand my scores collection. wait till gramercy sale!

anyway i survived today. i survived through biology and geography elective paper. oh yay. (note: i survived through. it doesn't mean i'll do well. i'm quite sure i'll do quite badly. that's for studying everything at the last minute, in simpler words, a day before the exam.)

so i better start on my chemistry! and do more emath!

oh my. i can't wait till thursday, after the chemistry paper. then i'll be half free. and there'll be a break. and i can't wait till monday. cause that's when i'm getting my chopin book back. (:

au revoir!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

3:50 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

i'm going to have a mental breakdown soon.

Mental breakdown (also known as nervous breakdown) is a non-medical term used to describe a sudden, acute attack of mental illness such as depression or anxiety.

hah. i got that from wikipedia.

i seriously give up on studying. i feel like crying every fifteen minutes. when the news come on, i feel like crying. when anyone talks, i feel like crying. when i see my textbooks, i obviously feel like crying.

i should just go bawl my lungs out.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

7:45 AM

Sunday, August 19, 2007

my heart feels heavy. it always does, whenever i talk about my future.

anyway i found a new alternative again. for next year. i wonder why on earth was i thinking about my future when i'm supposed to be studying. i've seriously lost my ability to study and to concentrate. HOW?

you know what. i'm beginning to detest Venice. because it wasted my whole day, trying to get it into my head. but anyway i'm finally done with it. (:

yay. i'm quite happy with the new alternative. provided that i do well for my o levels. i can flunk prelims for all i care. no i'm not going to do that.

anyway i was just telling daddy that i might just end up going to some funny jcs. he was actually trying to tell me that i don't have to go to the top jcs, i can just go to vj or tj. like hello? they are top too. so i ended up getting very irritated and turned sarcastic. (OPPS)

so yes. mommy is the best. telling her jc stuff saves me lots of explanation. and she thinks my new alternative is not bad too! HAHA.

alright. i shall go to bed. and i didn't practice piano today. i'm so annoyed with myself. AND Venice.

au revoir!

i'm actually quite sad at the thought of parting with my sister for god-knows-how-many years. ):

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

12:33 PM

Friday, August 17, 2007

i strongly believe that i had screwed the mep paper up.

oh well. i shall practice hard over this weekend for mep practical this coming wednesday! maybe my piano teacher can give me a mini lesson at the janacek room. (: or maybe not. since she'll want to practice my violin piece with me. ):

i'm still not studying hard enough. all i've been doing these days is completing homework. gosh. i don't want anymore traumatising moments like the o levels chinese result.

if i don't get decent marks for prelims, i'll refuse to go to a jc. i shall just spend three weeks idling around. but my dad will definitely murder me for that.

alright! it's homework time again.
au revoir!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

10:23 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007

i thought my life ended when i received the chinese o levels result.

well, i almost killed myself from bawling for the whole of recess.

oh well. i knew i didn't put in effort at all. i've half expected that i wouldn't do well. but it's shocking how overwelmed i was by my emotions. anyway no point thinking about it now. i'm going to retake chinese! yay. i'm so going to get my A1.

time to focus on my mep. i want to do well for prelims alright. though i'm really doing last minute revision. :/

wednesday shall be my lucky day. and i really do love mep. and mep classes. and mep people. so i'm going to pass mep with flying colours. jiayou to me!

au revoir!

thank you darlings for being there. sorry for giving all of you such a big shock. i'm alright now. don't worry. (:

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

8:37 AM

Saturday, August 11, 2007

i realised i didn't say anything about wednesday. cause i was so busy emo-ing.

but anyway wednesday was funn. so yes. i dressed up in a sari at school. which was disastrous, with the fact that i only reached school at 7.15am. and running around in heels aren't the fun-est thing to do. and the elderly thing was er okayy. so yes. that's about it for school. but i took lots and lots of photos. until my jaw and cheeks actually hurt. oh my. i can't wait to get them. HAHA. send me people. send send send!

then we changed out of our ethnic costumes in school. and yes. the moment everyone saw me, they started feeling nausea. simply because my shirt says 'i'm so sweet i'll give you cavities'. it was a pretty shirt okay! my favourite shirt. (:

and they said my skirt was very short but my mommy said it wasn't! HAHA. yes. i asked my mom if the skirt was short. but anyway imagine running around school with that. and sharmaine wore skirt! yay. my efforts in persuading her were not wasted! haha. shilbe! go get a skirt. ((: even oli wore skirt. skirts are pretty pretty. HAHA.

my grandma and uncle and cousin are in singapore. which gives me lesser motivation to study. this is bad. with mep prelims coming up in 4 days time. make me fall in love with mr haydn please.

au revoir!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

5:21 AM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

i'm feeling horrible now. sad. angry. annoyed. something along that line.

but anyway one happy thing is that i've gotten my revenge. my sister is in trouble. lalala. gives me so much satisfaction. i know i'm mean, but my sister is an idiot. and she doesn't know how to argue for nuts.

i think i'm bitching too much. or rather i should bitch at all. does it really make me feel satisfied? i don't think so. it just makes the hatred that i'm feeling deeper.

and i swear i'm never telling my parents stuff again. they will just think that i'm being childish again. given their many years of 'experience'. AHHHH.

i want to sleep. sleep all day and not do anything. OH MY. i can't stand my feelings right now. i feel like crying but i can't cry. i feel like screaming but i can't scream. gosh. i don't even know what i'm feeling.

AHHH. i shall just do my homework to make myself feel better.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

9:48 AM

i've been having odd dreams. i wonder why.

i've been feeling quite emotional lately. i wonder why too.

national day songs make me sad. watching national day parade on tv makes me sad too.

it's such a pity that we didn't have national day celebrations yesterday. i would rather have the concert than carnival day. the concert would have made me sad. but i wanted a concert, since this is the last national day i would be celebrating. i really should stop my 'last time' for everything. but it's hard to imagine what life would be without all these special occasions.

i think this year's national day song is quite alright. i mean the 'there's no place i'd rather be'. not the other one. hah.

imagine starting days without the national anthem and pledge. imagine no more ndps. imagine not dressing up in ethnic costumes during national day celebrations in school again. (with me hyperventilating and screaming my lungs out cause the sari was dropping)

well. the worse is to imagine not having the people around me in future. people whom i scream, shout, scold, tease, laugh at. people who laughs at my silliness. people who praises me. (: people who cares when i'm sad or when i suddenly break down (which you can say is very often). people who feel shy after i plant a kiss on their cheek, or rather come back looking for more (we were playing with jialing's funny dice).

oh well. i told you i'm emo-ing. i'm alright, seriously. i'm always like that, especially this year. and especially since i can't concentrate on my homework, and needless to say, my revision.

alright!
au revoir. (:

the yesterday of last year, i was watching fireworks with people who are dear.

from 'there's no place i'd rather be', a few of my favourite lines:
'There's no place i'd rather be, you'll always be a part of me.'
'This is where ... And my friends grew up with me'

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

4:57 AM

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